More About Me
ABOUT ME
Even though I’m living in my own world of solitude and haven’t underwent any kind of love affair before, I can say that I’m happy despite of the fact that I’m a loner. I prefer not to socialize because I’m afraid to let the people know my secret ( that I belong to the third sex ) & it’s simply because of the social stigma that’s still eminent until now. That’s why it’s so hard for me to connect with other people especially dealing with straight men. I find it so hard conversing with them even though I’m no cross-dresser, behave, move & quite sound like them ( except in times when I express intense emotions of course like seeing creepy crawling things). But no matter how hard I try to conceal the truth about my sexuality, my true nature persists to surface and I am still being chased by the most prominent speculating question of all time: “Are you gay?” I occasionally shake my head as quick as possible! If they only know how it feels to be in this heart-gripping situation. Yes I’m a man… it just happened to be that I’m ( a soft ) gay. I know I can’t it hide forever but I have no plans of coming out. ( Actually, my family knows about it coz since I’m a child, I already showed some
tendencies & they corrected me for that. They used to keep on telling me that if I continue to act in a soft way, people will call & tease me ‘bakla’.)
Yet on the other side of being a loner is like living in an abandoned island. It’s also sad because I’m like an outcast longing for the crowd’s attention, always being left behind in one corner, feeling wasted as if my existence is no longer worthy anymore. I really need someone to lean on, someone who could defend me, fight for me, accept me and love me.
I’m not telling all of these details for you to be sympathetic and not also to lure danger (well, to those “opportunist” predators roaming around the urban jungle, I’m warning you, I have a relative who is an executive judge so you better BEWARE). I’m just trying to be honest from the very start and I’m anticipating that you and I have the same case.
Though inexperienced, I’m willing to learn the ropes of having a relationship. Late bloomer as you may say but it’s never too late for a heart that thirsts for an eternal, loyal, true, and unconditional LOVE.
